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Nov. 9th, 2009 @ 11:29 pm
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Christmas Wish List!
Graphic novels:
- "Elmer" by Gerry Alanguilan
- "The Love Eaters" by Andre Drillon
- The "Trese" series by Budjette Tan and Kajo Baldisimo
- Will Eisner titles: A Life Force, A Contract With God, Dropsie Avenue
- Any book from the "Love and Rockets" series by Gilbert and Jaime Hernandez. I'd particularly like "Flies on the Ceiling" and anything to do witht the village of Palomar.
Things that are not comic books:
- Doc Martens!!! Doc Martens! Red or classic black.
- Marc Jacobs "Daisy" or YSL's "Baby Doll"
- New Mac brown eyeliner
- Shue Uemura make-up remover because I'm almost out of it
- The best moisturizer and primer with SPF in the world. Actually I'm into anything with SPF. I'm alarmed at the freckles that have formed on my face since I moved here (and Asians are not supposed to have freckles unless you are Erica Paredes)
- New hard drive (terrabyte sana)
- Point and shoot camera i can stuff in my pocket and run out the door with. Or a Flip! ehehehe
- Big-ass computer monitor to work on!
- Tickets to the Yeah Yeah Yeahs in Sydney on January 8.
- For Manny Pacquiao to WIN!
- Love, peace, happiness; for all the destruction wrought by typhoons to heal itself; for smooth, clean elections; a noble and non-corrupt new president to lead our country forward; a new pollution-free and sustainable way of living for all humanity; enlightenment and compassion for all humankind.
- For my big goals to come true next year.
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Geez! I feel like I've gotten so shallow. I feel like my problems are so shallow. There are so many things to be excited and thankful for right now, and I don't feel that. WHY??
Stupid requests. Stupid jealously. Stupid alcohol. Stupid yosi (I quit before I even really started!). Stupid love (HAHA). Stupid rebounds. I'd like to say stupid friends, but hell no. They're all I've got.
I want to punch life right in the face, give it two middle fingers and say, "I'm better than that!!" Yeah, well.
And now for more messages to not so random people:
1. I feel like such a dumbass for misinterpreting you. You have to know this.
2. There's something wrong with how you've been ignoring me lately. And yet, you go on and kiss me. You're totally hiding something.
3. That conversation never happened. Not only because I told you so, but also because I don't know what will become of it.
4. And now, watch me throw myself at you AND you. Again, SHALLOW.
5. These (and more!) wouldn't have happened if you didn't make me wait seven months for nothing. Fine, at least four months, considering the time you were lying to me. I WANT THAT BACK!
6. I have lost all respect for you. Everything in those two years and ten months are now meaningless to me. I've started to cringe at the thought of you.
O, eh. Magsama na kaya kayong lahat!!
Thank you all for a wonderful sem break. The only real sem break I've had.
Back to work, bitches! State of Consciousness:  rejected |
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I don't know how to talk about my life anymore except through not-so-random messages to anonymous people. Crypticism, if you may.
1. I have nothing and everything to say to you. And right now, I think you're lying to me.
2. I have nothing to say to you only because I've already said everything. And I think you're keeping something from me.
3. I have everything to say to you but I won't because you have to go first. And I think you just want to hide with all your glory.
4. I have said everything to you. And I think I just wasted my time.
5. I haven't said all that I wanted to say to you. And I think I'll never have the chance anymore.
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Nicole celebrated her birthday last night at her place. Pia, Toyang and Char were present. it was a fun night. the food was great. many pictures were taken. many silly YouTube videos were watched.
funny thing about last night. one of Nicole's guests was a high school classmate of hers and it turned out I knew her. at first, I thought she just looked like someone I knew but when I heard her name was Athena, it clicked that she was one of Sacha's students back in 2003. small world.
the only downer happened when we were about to leave. when I got into my car, I was wondered why the side mirror was so dark. at second glance, I realized it was because the mirror wasn't there. I went up to Toyang and found her mirrors were stolen, too. the guy who was supposed to be watching the cars got viciously chewed out because of that.State of Consciousness:  cheerful/annoyed |
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Never again. Never fucking again!
Friday night didn't happen. At least as of now, it didn't happen.
The one who promised to make sure that no one broke my heart was the one who decides to break it.
My best friend broke my heart, and I get to shoot him with a gun! Holrayt!
Picnic with Aya, Pjay, Carlo, Hannah and Tius in Antipolo yesterday!
FOR THE WIN.
Damn it. I love my friends. State of Consciousness:  irritated |
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Nov. 6th, 2009 @ 07:05 pm
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Hnnnnnggrr.
Lumalala pa sipun ko. Solid pa workload. Arg.
Heto nalang. Pampalibog.
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Today was Lia's third first day of school.
The first first day of school was back in June when she started in her Old School and we still lived in Makati. The second first day was last month when we chose a New School now that we're in Merville. They put her in the Nursery Class because this was the age group she is part of. After a few days, the teacher conducted a baseline assessment to see how far along Lia is developmentally. I guess she noticed that Lia was a little bit ahead of her classmates so she used to Kinder assessment tool and found that Lia already knows most of the things the Kinder kids are supposed to learn. She then told me that she proposed to the school that Lia be accelerated to the Junior Kinder class in the beginning of the second semester, which starts in November.
While I'm really proud that Lia is smart enough to get accelerated, I had a few reservations about this decision. One is that the kids in the Junior Kinder class seem so much bigger than her. I was afraid their size would intimidate her and she would be too shy to make new friends. Another was that, although she can already read, I thought perhaps the kids in the Kinder class are expected to already know how to write, color and draw, and when we started in the Old School, she didn't know how to do these things yet. So I asked for a meeting with her teacher so we can discuss her acceleration, and she showed me her assessment. While the Nursery kids are still learning which letters are which, Lia can already read big words (no surprise there. she can read whole books). The Nursery kids are still learning what are the colors and shapes, and Lia had mastered all these years ago, including unusual shapes like Hexagon and Octagon. They noticed also that sometimes she wasn't listening to the teacher anymore and would just stare at the signs on the wall and read them.
The teacher also showed me that Lia can indeed write her name LIA, can draw simple figures like a diamond and a cross, and if presented with a shape in dotted lines, she can adequately trace it with a pencil. Of all the the skills that Kinder kids are expected to learn, Lia can do more than 80% so clearly, even if she's the same size and age as the kids in Nursery class, developmentally, she doesn't belong there anymore.
I expressed my concern about her ability to socialize so the teachers allowed Lia to sit in with the Junior Kinder class for about 30 minutes one day to see how she does, and while she didn't exactly start making friends right away, she wasn't distressed or nervous, she barely noticed I was there observing, and she confidently explored the new classroom in her typical serious fun way. I noticed also the the kids in the Junior Kinder class, while most were bigger, they were more like Lia in that they talk A LOT, they sing along with the teacher, and they open books to read on their own. It seems I really had nothing to worry about, and I agreed to let her be accelerated beginning November.
Today I sat in with Lia in her third first day of school and just as i the first two first days, she virtually ignored my presence in the classroom. She quietly did everything the teacher asked (including smile and wave at your new classmates). She wrote her own name on her activity sheet without help (some of other kids needed a guide) and ate all her snacks. She was still a bit slow in the songs that everyone else already knew, and she needed help in coloring, but on the whole I think she had fun. When her Nursery teacher saw her in the common room and asked her how her new class was, she offhandedly said, "Oh, it's easy," Talaga naman. Mana kay Lolo Dan.
It's the first class she's in that's more than 10 kids, and the first class where she's not noticeably smarter than everyone else. To me, she seemed small and a little bit lost in the sea of noisy NOISY children (today's class convinced me that I CANNOT be a preschool teacher), and as a mom, I want her to always be the BEST in her class. But hopefully being with them challenges her to shine and be even better than she is now. I don't think there's anything those other kids can do that she can't, except maybe beat them up, which doesn't count. So here's hoping we made the right decision.
And knowing Lia, she's just going to come up with new ways to impress us, every step of the way.
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Office radio is playing 90's RnB/Hip-hop. Oddly enough I find it easy on the ears. Salt n Peppa, TLC, WRECKX-N-EFFECT, Snow bullshit.
Go figure.
There's no denying that there's some novelty to be found in its nostalgia.
Sure neough, it beats what's considered to be rhythm and blues nowadays with the oonce oonce and those horrible t-pain vocalizer effects.
I can't take that shit.
Hahaha. Damn. I remember high school kids getting beat up for listening to this shit in public. The whole METAL versus RAP era was pretty ridiculous. Fun times though. |
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Not all my entries have been cross-posting to Multiply
which I guess isn't so bad after all
considering, well, you know. The content. Heh.
People have been bugging me to use Facebook.
I mean, when I was a frequent user then, no one seemed to bother.
It's been a couple of months since I deleted my account
and now friends are trying to get me back on the site.
Some are even saying that if don't make a new one or resart my old account soon
they plan on creating a "Fan Profile", filling it with emabarassing pictures.
Bleah.
Shit.
Yung nawawalang lambing
na halos malimutan ko na
naranasan ko uli nung isang gabi.
*sigh*
Nung mga oras na yun parang nagka-girlfriend uli ako.
Tee hee~
Sarap.
Salamat sa lambing, mare. Maaasahan talaga kita pag ako'y naghahanap ng atensyon, naghihingalo ang aking "self-worth" at sinumpung ng "insecurity". Alam na alam mo talaga mga kiliti ng damdamin ko.
Nadala talaga ako sa usapan natin at wala talaga akong pagod na naramdaman kahit nailinakad na pala natin and Southland mula Aguirre. Ni isang patak o gapang ng pawis, wala. Iba ka talaga. Hahaha.
I love you in a totally platonic way.
Cheers!
Tinubuan ako ng solid na pigyawat (pigsa-tigyawat hybrid) sa tabi ng ilong ko
nang dahil sa kapupuyat. Lintikan. Paano tayo mantsi-chicks nito? Gademmet. |
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1. It's done. Wag niyo na kong balikan. Leave me to my peace while I leave you to yours.
2. CHALLENGE ME! That's what you lack! You're too easy. This is the whole reason why I haven't been actively taking your hints.
3. There are two of you who have given me every reason to fall in love with you. At the same time, you've both also given me the reason/s why I shouldn't. These are why I'm not.
4. Sometimes, I enjoy making you feel jealous.
5. I miss you. Lately, too much. I wish I were still yours.
6. Let's do that again. This time, sustain it.
7. No, not you.
8. If only you weren't... YEAH.
9. So... It's on. HAHA.
10. Thank you. ALL OF YOU. State of Consciousness:  drunk |
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went to Mega Masquerade yesterday. turnout was amazingly low. only one hall was used and yet it was practically deserted. people were most likely either afraid of the typhoon or out in the provinces for All Saints/Souls Day. good chance it was both both. ran into Dang, Marcelle, Mark, Carl and Char there.
shortly before leaving, I met up with an old blockmate and bought his Wii. great deal, too. barely used with four games and a second controller. now I just need to get Twilight Princess, Metroid Prime Trilogy, Smash Bros. and two more controllers and I'm all set.
afterwards, I went to Jayca's place for our Halloween party. others in attendance were Crissa, Jane, Maan, Win and Win's friend whose name escapes me (Jack? John?). we had a 50's theme but I think Maan was the only one with an outfit appropriate for the era.
after the American diner style inspired dinner and a bit of drinking was done, we watched a couple of horror movies. the first one, Paranormal Activity has been getting a lot of buzz and deservedly so, though I think the atmosphere took away from the horror. I've heard that theater screenings had people leaving halfway because they were too scared to finish the movie.
the second movie was Nosferatu. maybe it's because the movie was somewhere around 80 years old but for the most part we found it funny. Count Orlock was seriously creepy, though.
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It's amazing how there are so many things that you want to say to a person to the point wherein you've started to write them down so as not to forget your words, but once you've faced them and you're given that chance to say what's on your mind, you blank out or say something completely different or totally unrelated.
That's brutal honesty for you.
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Oct. 29th, 2009 @ 08:39 pm
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Grabe. Hanggang ngayon ba naman namimilipit pa rin ako.
Tinatamaan ng lungkot pag mag isa pero pag ayan na't pinalilibutan ng mga kanaisnais na nilalang eh biglang tumutupe.
Ewan ko ba. Himala nga't nagka-ex pa ako eh.
Hahaha.
May ilan naman diyan na pwede. Kaya. Kaya ko naman talaga. Pero.
Ewan.
Ba't kaya?
Tingin tuloy sa'kin ng ilan suplado.
Tutal totoo naman pero..
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Dear Desi,
It would seem that I am remiss that your every other month letter is one month late. But this was not because I forgot, not even (primarily) because I was busy. I was busy. Very busy. But that wasn't the main reason your letter is late. The reason is because we didn't have internet until about two weeks ago, and I figured, since I also inadvertently skipped Ate Lia's 18th month letter, why not make it a sort of tradition and write to you on your 19th? This is all a big coincidence of course. But for the sake of fairness, it works.
The reason we didn't have internet has very little to do with you or how you've grown, but perhaps it would be good to write about it to you anyway, so you would have an idea of how things were when you were this age. We moved to our house in Merville just 7 days before you turned on 18 months. That entire week was spent packing and moving and unpacking and fetching things that were left behind. But the house was pretty much presentable by October 26. However, on October 27, Metro Manila was besieged by the most devastating typhoon we've had in decades and most of the city was submerged in flood. To this day, one month later, people, no, entire cities are still reeling from the effects of Typhoon Ondoy, as several more storms came and ravaged the country almost every week after that.
So you see, I did want to write you an 18th month letter, even without broadband internet in the house, I thought I could use Daddy's Smart Bro to at least write about how much you've grown. I might not have been able to edit and upload any pictures, but at least your letters were on time. However, as the devastation became apparent, and thousands of people lost their homes and loved ones to the disaster, it seemed incongruous to the times to tell the world what a lovely, beautiful child you've grown to be, and how proud I am of everything that you are. So Mommy busied herself trying to help the victims in whatever way she can, and promised you I would write you when you reached 19 months. And here you are.
I must say, Desi, that you seem to have made the most of the past three months, in terms of growing up and learning things. Actually, many of the new things you are able to do are recent developments. I can't help but think that you took to moving to Merville really well, not only because you seem so happy to have so much space to run around in, and rooms to enter and exit, you've also started to do and know things that you've never seemed inclined to show before.
Before we moved, it was already apparent how much you love books. You love to say Boo! and sign "book" until I pick one out and read it to you. Or, you would pick out a book yourself, bring it to me, and then grab my hand and make my fingers point to the words, as if to say, read! Read! This made me very happy and proud, because both your Daddy and I, and you Ate as well, love reading very much, and that you would show an interest even before you've learned your letters filled my heart with joy. So we would spend countless afternoons reading Dr. Seuss's Alphabet over and over again.
Before long I noticed you started to recognize certain letters. The first letter you seem to have learned was O. You would silently listen as I read you an alphabet book, and when we reach the page after N, you would yell O! You have no idea how cute this was! Later on it was obvious you've learned A and B (although for B you didn't say bee, you said buh), you skipped C and knew D and E. And then M. And most recently, G. This random knowing of the alphabet is so fascinating to me because I've never seen anything like it before. And it is very very exciting.
And then just today, you impressed Tita Michelle that apparently, you also know your numbers! She would show you flash cards and you know most of the numbers already. Sure, you say Wa for 1, and Tee for 3, and Bebe for seven, but it cannot be denied that you can identify the letters. I had a clue you already knew them because in Katipunan last Sunday you pointed to a rubber tile and yelled EIT!!! Sure enough, the number eight. You are definitely a smart smart baby girl.
You also know your animals. You can sign Dog, and when you see a cat, you say MIAOW! When you see a cow you say MOO! You know the body parts, not only to point at but to name. You like to snuggle with me up close in bed, point to my eyes and say "Ah!" Point to my nose and say "No!" My mouth and you say "Ma!" My ears, you say "Ee!" and then you would pat my head and say "Heh!" And then I would ask you, where's your pusud? At which you would smile and then curl up in a ball to cover your tummy cause you know I will tickle your belly button. You never resist too hard though. I know you enjoy the tickling too.
I guess you've started to learn so much more now that we live in Merville because of the big change in your daily routine. Where we used to just stay home all day, either playing in Mommy's room or in Lola's house, basically wherever Yaya brings you, now you have more freedom to move around and be active. You wake up very early each morning, so you and Yaya and Lola Cora usually go to the park for a morning stroll before breakfast. After breakfast, we watch a little TV, take a shower, and then have a nap. when you wake up we have lunch, and then play with Mommy. Later in the afternoon, after Ate had woken from her afternoon nap, it's back to the park for you and Ate and Lola. So, since we've moved, you've been getting a lot of exercise, seeing a lot of new things, and moving around much more. It is infinitely better than being cooped up inside the house, especially since you're such an active baby, and so brave and daring. Our new home has really been a blessing for you.
These days I tend to hug and kiss and baby you so much more than before. Your baby cousin lives with us now, and you seem to be aware that you are no longer the youngest. At first you seemed extra malambing to me and your Yaya Fe (whom you call Aya) but soon I think you realized that the new baby is not your Mommy's baby. I want to reassure you that I love you and will always be my baby, even if soon after you turn two years old, you will have a younger brother or sister, and he or she will definitely be Mommy's baby. My dear, darling Desi, you will never be replaced, you will always be my baby, even when you're old and graying, I don't think I will see you as anything else. Be that as it may, I know that when the new baby comes, I won't be able to spend as much time with you, reading and playing puzzles on the iPhone, or just cuddling in bed and watching TV. So I'm doing my best to hug and kiss and spend one on one time with you as much as I can before that happens.
I'm sorry that you don't have a lot of photos with this letter. Mommy was too busy to take many, and also we lost several pictures when we upgraded to a new computer. However, I think the few that were left show how lovely you are growing to be. I hope they make up for the lost photos.
I love you so much, forever and ever,
Mommy
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